A joke god had on me.

I woke up as usual this morning, feeling a little nauseous and lost in appetite. After checking the calendar I was so excited and nervous but I noticed that my menstruation was late for more than a week! My first thought was: 

AM I GOING TO BE A MOTHER VERY SOON???

Many images of babies flash across my mind, I was so elated. But I had to calm myself down and had my urine tested before I can rush into any conclusion. I took out my pregnancy test kit and went to had my urine tested. After waiting for a few minutes, I was so nervous yet eager to see the result. 

Unfortunately, the result turned out this way:

I was utterly disappointed. Why? Why? Why?

Why is it so hard to conceive? Why is it so hard when we already tried so hard?

Is this a joke god had on me?????

When will it be my turn?

Children? Are they angel or devil?

Well to me, I think they are angels in every family.

Every time I see children running out from childcare centre, giving their parents a warm hug and set off as a family, I will be so envious. How blissful life will be to have children in the family. Children are the parents' source of joy. Their innocence face, curiosity and irresistible cuteness just brighten up every parent day. But children don't come easily, especially when you want it badly. 

Being married for more than a year, my husband and I are still trying very hard for a baby. We both love kids and always wanted to have one of our own. After trying many different methods, their is no sign of pregnancy. Doctor said we are both healthy and fine, but I still do not understand why having a child is so hard. 

Or maybe its just not the time yet...